May 18, 2010

  • L.O.V.E.

    It kind of scares me the level that I have allowed myself to become attached to another human being.
    It has only been two days and I literally feel as if part of myself is missing.
    Nothing can shine as brightly, be as exciting or feel as wonderful until my love comes back to me.
    That is just the short of it.
    Call me irrational, silly or naive if you wish... but I know what I've found.
    Love.
    I love Chad with my whole heart.
    I miss him when he is gone.
    Whenever he does leave (always temporary, but still difficult) I get incredibly sappy.
    The smallest thing makes me think of him.
    The silliest most insignificant things move me to tears.
    In turn, romance and romance movies are 10x more appealing.

    I just got back from taking myself to the movies to see Letters to Juliet.
    Wow is all I can say.
    I really, REALLY enjoyed it!
    I laughed.
    I cried (just a bit)
    I smiled and was comforted by the story.
    It was beautiful.
    :)

    It makes me wonder...
    Is this how God thinks of me?
    It challenges me...
    Is this how I feel about Him?
    When did that all-consuming, passionate love for Him fade?
    How can I get it back?
    He has never changed.
    His thoughts of me have not diminished.
    His love for me is steadfast.
    So it is simply up to me to turn around, face Him and walk into His embrace.
    That simple.
    That easy.
    That wonderful.

    What a wonderful thing love is. :)

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    "That I feel myself surrender
    Each time I see your face.
    I am staggered by your beauty,
    Your unassuming grace.
    And I feel my heart is turning,
    Falling into place.
    I can't hide
    Now hear my confession."
    - Josh Groban - 'My Confession'

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